Experience.

I feel so stupid, i feel so dumb, i feel so.. Urgh!

Is it true that 'The more you care, the more you lose' ?
It appear so true to me.
The more i care about more people, the more i ended up losing them.
I don't know why, and what is wrong with people these days.
Maybe i wasn't good enough.

I have always wanted to show my love, care and concern to everyone,
without asking anyone the same in return.
But for the past few days, i've been thinking why should i do it when..
nobody bothers about me, making me care about them, yet they dont care about me?
Ain't this making me behaving like an idiot fool, irritating them and stalking them somehow?
I just wanna be like Michael Jackson, promoting and showing love to the world..
Is it so hard?

I don't know the purpose of my life, seriously.
That's why i learnt WingChun because i want to protect anyone.
In addition, if i were to die, it's fine, because my life is nothing.
It just make me feel that, my life can be used as a sacrifice just to save somebody.
Do you know how hurtful this is?

I don't have much close friends.
Even though i have my own new clique, still, i'm left out.
What the hell am i?
Why am i like this..?
My family are not close, and in fact, we will never be close.
Dad work, mum go casino gamble, bro work, and what about me?
Who will be at home improving our family relationships etc?

Sigh.. Honestly, FML.
I shall care less about people now, and i mean it.
Good bye.