I admit, i'm losing myself again. It just seems to me that the ones that were once close to me were mostly the one that make me feel this way these days. I really miss the time when i was 'close' with Xinxin and liangwin bro. I also don't know what happened to xinxin. Ever since September, we haven't been chatting much and meeting up at all.. Honestly, i miss her.
Flashed back the past messages of them, such as Xinxin meimei, Shy Princess, etc really reminded me of how happy i was when texting them last time. However, what happened? Why do friends come in and out of live, as though they're entering ERP and exiting from the CBD area. Urgh.. Told you already, Poly reopens can change my fuckin' mind and mood.
I don't know if being alone is my life. I'm fine, but if you really want me to be alone, then i would rather not knowing anybody in this world, because i can treat them as strangers and just lead my own life. Unfortunately, i knew them and worst is when someone whom you were close with once, walked past you and ignore you, didn't bother to wave to you etc.. That kind of feeling sucks. Why? Why must i have such classmates in Poly too?
I admit, i don't like. I doubt they read my blog, so well. I wished they could find something 'interesting' about me. I don't mind them teasing me just like how they teased my great gangster friend in class. I guess i don't even belong to this society, this country, etc. I don't care if you are going to complain my blog to the court blabla, not interested at all because i didn't name out their names over here.
In class, i'm only left with 2 daniels that i feel comfortable mixing with. Of course, D.Yeo told me that they'll never change no matter what. The sight of them really irks me, i swear to god. But come to think of it, i just have to tolerate them for another 2.5 years. Guess time flies, isn't it?
I don't know if being alone is my life. I'm fine, but if you really want me to be alone, then i would rather not knowing anybody in this world, because i can treat them as strangers and just lead my own life. Unfortunately, i knew them and worst is when someone whom you were close with once, walked past you and ignore you, didn't bother to wave to you etc.. That kind of feeling sucks. Why? Why must i have such classmates in Poly too?
I admit, i don't like. I doubt they read my blog, so well. I wished they could find something 'interesting' about me. I don't mind them teasing me just like how they teased my great gangster friend in class. I guess i don't even belong to this society, this country, etc. I don't care if you are going to complain my blog to the court blabla, not interested at all because i didn't name out their names over here.
In class, i'm only left with 2 daniels that i feel comfortable mixing with. Of course, D.Yeo told me that they'll never change no matter what. The sight of them really irks me, i swear to god. But come to think of it, i just have to tolerate them for another 2.5 years. Guess time flies, isn't it?
Well, why did i waste part of my time blogging about this issue on my blog when i'm socially and mentally strong? Who can lives alone and party alone in life other than those who experienced it before? Doubt anyone could.
Also, the reason why i don't want to mix friends or socialise is because i want to prevent hurt from memories. Without memories of having friends, those little things or amazing things we do together in life, life would be great with lesser pains too. If i really forgot and shut down my brain memory, that's it. I'll forget everyone for my own benefits. I feel so selfish, LOL.
I was kidding for the previous paragraph. Shag, bye.
The Joker is really awesome, he's a man with no plan and someone who can achieve his own goals just being alone. I really envy him..
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